Some memories have been shared.
Most of them were good. Most of them made me felt a little giddy inside.
Most of them made me smile a little brighter than usual.
This is not my first time falling in love alone.
Not my first time falling in love within a distance.
Neither my first time keeping the feeling just to myself.
Time has changed. A lot.
Past times showed me that sometimes falling in love alone is much better than to express it.
But with you, I want to start something new.
With you, I want to start feeling things like I used to again.
With you, I want to start feeling like myself again, without doing much effort to it.
With you, I want to laugh a little louder, till the only tears exist doesn’t come from a cry but from a laugh you trigger.
With you, I want some things change a little better for myself.
I know it feels like I’m reaching for someone I can’t see.
Feels like I’m reaching for the end of the sea.
I know you’re there, but somehow you’re still far away.
But you should know that not even one of them I regret to feel.
Being able to enjoy every second I adore you from the distance is already a bliss.
I have missed the feeling, missed the way my heart rate scrambled when you’re not far away from me.
I may not need to know (even sometimes I want to) whether you’re feeling the same.
How we deal with ourselves right now is something I don’t want to take for granted.
Dear the owner of soft shady brown eyes,
I know I might not be the star in your universe, but I know for sure you are in mine.
May Allah eases your way to a great future you currently pursue.
It is your name that is in my most sincere whisper in every prayer.
-from the girl who drowned in your eyes